19 days ago
See him? When I look in the mirror, this is what I see. A guy who’s been through hell and back, and still walks through hell now at times. There’s this thing inside of him that pushes him to want to be the best, want to be the smartest, want to the the most successful, want to be....accepted. •
Then there’s another part of him that yells “KILL THAT NOISE”...it’ll never happen. “You struggle too much.” “You still battle depression.” “You still fish for compliments.” “You still overreact to things that shouldn’t bother you.” “You still try way too hard.” “You still reach out to things that never reach back.” It’ll never happen. •
People see him from a distance. Some think he’s funny, he’s outgoing, he’s energetic, he’s full of joy. Others think he’s arrogant, he’s loud, he’s obnoxious, he’s full of insecurities. Both people are right. But neither of them know him. Not fully. They don’t know the battles he’s fought. They don’t know about the mornings that he doesn’t want to get out of bed. They don’t know about his trust issues. They don’t know about the anxiety he faces when the room is too crowded or when there’s too much noise going on at one time. They don’t know about his mind that never stops running so he barely sleeps. They don’t know. •
The truth is...he’s just a person. Yeah, he preaches. Yeah, he leads worship. Yeah, he posts encouraging Facebook statuses to help someone else. Yeah, he posts about his “successes”. But...he’s just a person. Don’t put him on a pedestal. Don’t rely on him for everything; he’ll fail you. He’s just a person. •
To be honest...grace is only thing even keeping his glasses on his face. It is the one thing holding him together. It’s the invisible glue that makes you wonder why he’s not in jail or dead. If it wasn’t for grace, this picture and this post would not exist. So put grace on a pedestal. Grace will never let you down. Grace will never fail you. Grace will never run out, and will always have more than enough. Grace will never stop pursuing you, will never ignore you, and will never walk out. This guy....he’s just a person. But grace...is perfect.